Fighting the downsies. Or wait, I’m not fighting them. I’m not fighting to believe God loves me. I’m not doing anything to fight back against these thoughts that come to mind:
1. Didn’t work out with that girl? That’s because God doesn’t want you to have a good thing that you really want.
2. If God were powerful and near and if he loved you, you wouldn’t be lonely and sad right now.
3. Christian? The cross doesn’t change much in God’s perspective of you; truth is you are merely tolerated by God, not loved.
4. God just wants you for his fame. He just wants fans. He’s a rock star.
5. God is not blind to your needs; he just doesn’t like you enough to help you.
6. If you want God, you’d better sacrifice everything you enjoy in this world except for your Bible and food; live like a monk, then you’ll get his attention for a little bit. Maybe.
7. You are the seed that grew up on rocky soil. Sprang up, used up, dried up. You’re done.
If Jesus’ exchange on the cross only makes God mildly tolerant of me, can I honestly call it a great salvation? If God doesn’t think about me, doesn’t really forgive my imperfections, doesn’t WANT me, then what exactly is there to celebrate as a Christian? What would heaven be like if it were filled with people God could care less about having there? That’s no heaven.
The version of God I’m seeing is not the same version of God that gave me so much energy to live before. When I can’t see what’s really happening, I choose to remember the times he’s proven himself. I refuse to just sit and decay, letting these lies molest my mind. I put on the armor of God so that I can stand against lies.
Ephesians 6:11-18 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of [Christ’s] righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance…
Faith can extinguish all the flaming lies.